I knew i was a man

I knew that i was a man,
when i realised the mistakes I've done during my childhood and even during my boyhood
i went back and i apologised to people I've wronged, and begged for forgiveness, and I also forgave, made right to things i could, i confessed even though it risked alot of me
i took a decision that i would never repeat those mistakes even those of my father and friends.
i felt very closed with the Lord after the journey
i did what i felt it was right and harmed no one

i knew that i was a man after my ''grandmother'' said so to me

IGAZI EPHEPHENI

Ipeni lami likhale igazi phezukwe phepha kwalunga isizwe ngalekokuwa kwamaqhawe,lafunga,ladweba udaba oludida amadoda ngendida edabula imizwa engakhafuleki,kwazalwa inkondlo emnkantsha obomvu njenge ndlondlo enophaphu enkanda,ngalo leligazi lepeni nephepha angikwazanga ukuphimisela kodwa kuze ubone uceba kwesifungo zeyifundo zami ila kungibizile ukuthi phezukwenyembezi zamadoda ngilobe uthando lwethu ukuze mawungikhalisa wazi ukushisa kwazo,kugijime ibhola lepeni phezukwephepha imbongi zakhomba ukukhanya kwazalwa imicabango ecocekile eyenze lanetha nangaphansi kwetshe.Kaloku iyo endithetha ngayo imibongo endithuma kwelabasendulelayo,sisithethe kude kududi
inyezane,sihamba sifuduka sigawula sikhangela siyimbongi zosiba nomthonyana sivusa esakwantu ukuthi singayoleli,sithi imbongi esiyichana zigobe kuthi ingcali.Thina sibabhele ipeni lakhala igazi phezu kwephepha sasho salunga isizwe

An embacile

victimised by lust of the two who left me wondering with an innocent smile in a dust bin
thats why i kept on going backing digging the coz it formed part of my home that the two awarded me

my future was writen in the dust and the winds felt no sympathy thats why it blew it away
shaded by those shading of their skin that they shed to shade my past to haunt my future
And thoughts remain surpassing reasoning for no one answered my questions but instead they wipe tears on smiling faces instead of healing my pain
look, my father was further there and he's better there coz i dont need him here but wait........
cultures and religions clashing and melting on my hand for none have given me food to make me a man
i have made discision to go back to the land of the fallen ones but there are voices harassing my journey
i am a boy to little boys because i have lost the taste of education
building, digging trenches, because i was never a son to a father, he was further and he's better there coz i dont need him here
counting stars in roofless shelter,sleepless nights, hated to be me ,i longed to be there
i spoke in languages that only my feelings could interpret the painful moments
rainy days in town grinding my teeth
sunny days pounding my shovel and pik
an embacile, just visualise his funeral


*safe and rested in the arms of the Lord*

The final hour

I am the son above the sun, greater than the angels for they have never seen a sin, I have conquered temptations, trials and tribulations that have defeated your forefathers, my brothers you are the witness of these wonders. My journey reveals dexterity within the pastures of my destiny, unfortunately, I fought to be, and yes you were also meant to see through the eyes of the one above whose majesty is beyond liars of lame sires, through the fires of the evil ones you lost, you lost bieng

Close our eyes and pray for the next hour not to be sour on you as children of Grace from my father

What ever you want to do and your conscience seem to betray you, ask yourself if your mum was going to be proud of your action,

be aware of losing your faith in exchange of lies in the finale hour.

My voice is a revelation from ancient Ephesians to my Nguni salvation which was mistaken therefore mis-taken between cultures and rituals

You are living in the rhythm of the beginning of the second time, im here to remind you that the dark our is here

I am the son above the sun

zotha ngesimilo..nabafuna ukuk'veza elinye icala yehlisa ulaka....akekho ofanelwe ukubona udiniwe...khona sebenza ka nje naka nje babuke bazondiza babuy njenge yoyo bese uthi ngaphakathi kuwe ukwehlisa umoya kuyab'bulala ub'dlobongela obukumuntu...ngithi zotha ngesimilo

nababengasinakile sibabhekile nasemthandazweni sibabekile

ungazondi thatha konke kubesengathi kuyize ngoba inzondo ibulala umzondi

themba ngethemba lakho ngoba ukholo lusaphila

bezama ngemizamo ungakhohlwa lakuvule khona esomdali angeke kwavala muntu

sebekuhlikiza bekuphikisa cela endleni oyihambayo izingawaxoxi amanga ngawe lasebebuza ukuthi ub'qhawe bakho ub'qhelisile yini emakhoneni la ubudlula ngakhona makushona ilanga

bazokuchapha ngenhlamba uzungakhohlwa ukuthi indodana bayenza okungaphezulu kwakho

zotha ngesimilo

laba ububasiza ibo abazoba nezitha zakho, baphenduke abangani nezabo nezakho izitha

konke ungathi kwakudaliwe ngoba umdali uye owendalo nes'zalo nokholo

uzungakhohlwa ukuthi ukuguqa ngedolo kuyamphakamisa othobile
zotha nges'milo ngoba ukwenzela ukuphila impilo ethandwa omunye umuntu kuyize leze

The word

It was the word that said it all,
I was a word that turned darkness into light
It was the word that created and made…..
It was the word that created heaven and earth, the trees, species and all that beautify my origin and surroundings,
The word
It has spoken to prophets to gesticulate the stick over moving waters
Prophesised over desiccated bones and life innated, for word has spoken
Gratitude of the clemency word welded by love
The word, miraculously turning stones into bread, few fish feeding thousands
Humbly the nature becomes,
Trembling the demons
Not the book will ever be your word unless the writings on the book will subsist in your heart
For word has freed us all to give us authority over us,

I am the word of the blood from the lamb sacrifised for the lost and found humanity
The word came from love, from the absence of love results to none
It all happens in the name of love

Be consistent

What's so significant of losing the soul aim of living and gain few minutes pleasure and suffer the pain of a warrior sufferer?

What's so beautiful about to die on a battle field for friends playing enemy game?

Where do I find peace when my heart is broken into pieces by curses that messes my mind,

Beware of what you feed your kids for they will reap what you have sowed in them and you will be the first victim

Who am I in this world?

Do I want to change it or I being the change?

Open another beautiful chapter in your life and your previous one being the concrete foundation of your existing future,

I rose when you thought I was dead

Took what's precious when you thought I was blind

It’s amazing how birds looks stupid but it eats the best fruit on top and drops left over for you my friend, I praise you for calling me inyoni (bird).

I achieved when you were asleep, motivated when you said they’ve all tried and failed & who am I to make it.

I was praying when you cursing

I was a servant when you were the master

I was an audient when you demanded attention

I dedicated myself undividedly to decorousness

Never seized a moment to be true, didn’t doubt the knowledge of those who were thought to be shallow

By no means will I diverge from the purpose of what I was to be

Never forget to take no offence, search deep within you of errors if allegations are true or not

I love my friend for I am here now…………………